Grief is so tiring

I often feel so tired with grief. It weighs so heavy on my chest. 

There are some many things that are hard...

Seeing two girls about 18months apart playing with each other

Facebook! 

Thinking of times of year; Mother's Day, birthdays, being on holiday

Hearing other children with your name

Seeing other children the same age grow

Seeing double buggies 

Seeing other people go on to have their second child

Healthy babies born at 36 weeks (and going home the next day)

Being free to go out in the evening (and not limited by a newborn) 

Any babies born on tv but even more so when they are ill or die

Time on my own 

People complaining about their children 

And the list goes on.....